procrastination is something best put off until tomorrow..

Procrastination will be the death of me.

As I am sitting at my dining table studying for my polysci midterm tomorrow, I find my mind constantly wandering off. I feel as though I placed all of my motivational efforts into my polysci exam last friday, and I am starting to feel pretty restless... however I can almost see the light at the end of the tunnel. 

One thing I tend to do oh so often is stress way too much for a situation that lacks the need for that level of stress.. which isn't such an awful quality is it? I have learned to discover one thing about myself throughout my college career. I stress like there is no tomorrow for every exam, and then I find myself done with the exam in less than 20 minutes saying..."that was easy.." Since I  have discovered this newfound characteristic in myself, I actually find myself NOT freaking out about my midterm tomorrow.. this could be a really good thing or a really bad thing. I have come to two conclusions.. either I am just naturally smart and obtain the knowledge I need in order to ace these tests, or my freaking out stressing causes me to study excessively which makes these so easy. As I continue to waste more time, I am finding myself leaning toward the 2nd conclusion.. which is actually starting to freak me out. I do feel somewhat confident for this exam since I have spent the past week studying, but I still don't feel that I have touched every topic, and I am still feeling ignorant to some of what is expected to be on the test.

My teacher is pretty tough, and isn't to clear on what exactly is to be expected.. but he has explained a plethora of times that he is "cutting the strings" and preparing us for law school or graduate school. Which has actually had me freaking out if I choose to go to law school.. He always says " they wont give you prompts or tell you what to know in law school, you just have to know." Ummm sorry buddy... you didn't go to law school you went to grad school so how the heck do you know! Anyways..

Maybe I should stop wasting my time analyzing the test and actually continue studying for it... but procrastination sounds so much better right now, and now that I think of it.. so does my bed. 

This entire blog was a pretty pointless ramble of the thoughts in my messed up head, and took me away from my studying... I know many of you could care less about the nonsense I just rambled on about. But like I have stated previously, a blog helps to work out all of my crazy ideas and thoughts in my head.. and to somewhat organize them and even put me at ease. so am I at ease now? well no. But it was worth a shot...

wrapping up, Well i got my hair done today.. I considered a dark blonde light brown, but I am still having too much fun platinum.. and I know I would regret it terribly..  Also.. I am headed to moses lake RIGHT after my midterm for the first time since Summer, so if any of you moses lakers would like to see me while I am home you have my number. Most of my time will be spent with my family (And the Coles, which is considered family).. but maybe I can spare you a moment of my time ;) 

"Until you value yourself, you will not value your time.
Until you value your time, you will not do anything with it." ~ M. Scott Peck

"Simple pleasures are life's treasures" ;)

"Only as high as I can reach can I grow, Only as far as I seek can I go, Only as deep as I look can I see, Only as much as I dream can I be."

Well, as you know I started a blog at the beginning of the Summer that I was intending on posting in weekly. That idea obviously failed.

A lot has happened since the beginning of the Summer, all of which would consume an entire novel to write, and take up way too much of my precious time. So I'll just stick to the basics here.

I would love to say that my Summer was filled with lavish vacations, insane concerts, and even laying out tanning at the pullman dunes with friends, but that would all be a lie. Instead I took a 6 week summer session taking 4 classes, and worked. It isn't as bad as it sounds though, promise. I did also take one short vacation to California to visit Brandon playing summer ball, and partook in my brothers and best friends breathtaking fairytale wedding. So all in all, it was one memorable Summer. 

Well as I said, I spent the first summer away from home because I landed myself an awesome job. Since it's slim pickins' in Pullman, I am lucky to even have gotten a job let alone this one. I work at Flirt in Pullman which is a super chic boutique in Pullman with affordable designer brands. Which if you know me at all, you know this job was MEANT for me. Despite the fact that I come home with a new bag of clothes just about every day, it is nice to be able to make a little bit of an income for myself. During the Summer it was just myself and my manager Keri working so I was working over 30 hours a week, which was actually pretty awesome since Brandon was out of the state. It was a nice little way to remain occupied :) However, now that school has started I've noticed the difficulty of balancing such a hefty schedule. I am currently taking 18 credits which is 6 classes of almost all upper division courses and 2 labs and on top of that working 25-30 hours a week, maintaining a healthy relationship with my boyfriend, and taking care of our two beautiful babies! Plus I am in pre-law society, but it hasn't been demanding at all. This last week I noticed just how much of a toll it's been taking on me, so I had to cut back on hours for the next two weeks just to keep up with the demands of all of my professors. So far I am dealing with it well....well lets just say I haven't had a heart attack just yet.

Since my schedule is so demanding I haven't had a spare moment to make it home to moses lake. I miss my family insanely.. even stupid oscar :) It is super hard on me to be away from my family for as long as I have because my family is truly my world. I am the worlds biggest daddy's girl and being away from him is hard. We make up for it by long phone conversations, and if I ever need to vent to anyone I call him or my mom and let it ALL out. I have only seen them once since the Summer and the one time I saw my dad was for 5 minutes in spokane to drop off my car. (did i mention my dad finally got me my dream car!) I love my family SO much and I can not wait to go home. From beginning to the end the one thing you will always have is family, and if you lose site of that you really have nothing..

Anyways, as most of you already know.. Brandon and I "officially" moved in together, and it's going great. We both have our crazy busy schedules so we aren't in each others face every second of the day. It's so nice to have our little family all under one roof, and I couldn't be happier. We are both very content with where we are in our life, and don't worry we don't intend on moving forward anytime soon to those who don't believe me. We are young and living life with our priorities in mind. We both have very high goals and we both intend on reaching them, with each other by our sides. I am very happy and my love for him grows by the minute. I wouldn't trade my little family for the world.

We live together but we are not alone. :) We moved in with our good friends Eli and Brad. Yes....I do live with 3 boys... 2 of them having JUST moved out of a frat house. But it's not as bad as you think :) I decorated the entire townhouse and gave it all of my nice cozy touches so I didn't feel like I was living in a Fraternity. The boys aren't too happy about the fact that I currently use 4 closets and like 5 dressers in the townhouse, and one of them is just dedicated to all of my heels. Whoops...whats a girl gotta do? Well, All three boys have been surprisingly clean and we all get a long way too well. Despite the fact that they hide my keys or phone in food boxes, or put them in a ziplock bag and stick them in a cup of water and put them in the freezer, or report my pictures to facebook, take pictures of me sleeping, or post awful things on my facebook..... we are all pretty close, maybe a little too close. I am usually stuck with the laundry, the cooking and the cleaning.. but they all help out every once in a while :)

I need to wrap this up, and since I am so bad at writing these I'll clue you in on my future festivities. I have this week left to finish up homework and study for yet another essay midterm on Friday, and then I am headed home to Moses Lake for the first time since this Summer. I cant wait to enjoy my dad's Persian cooking, take a long hot jet bath with hot water that never ends, and spend quality time with my family. Then the weekend after I am going to Seattle to spend quality time with Brandon's family and see my brother and his beautiful wife and little miles kidd :). all in all I cannot wait to be back on the westside.It is going to be filled with haunted houses, scary movies, visiting the grandparents :), catching up with his parents, and spending time with my brother and best friend. IM CRAVING THE WESTSIDE. I haven't been out of Pullman in a while so excuse my excitement....

Well I have 5 cases to brief tonight, so I am going to put an end to this procrastination and get motivated on something productive. I will TRY to post one a week, but with the way my schedule is it's hard to find time to even breathe and sleep.  So I will definitely not make any promises......

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
Galatians 5:22-23